It's something I believe we all think about, at some point or another: how much of what I do is dependent on the actions I take versus the inexplicaple whims of fate? How much can I control? None of it? All of it? I'm not sure which answer is more comforting. On the one hand, if life really is guided by strange universal forces we can't understand, it alleviates personal responsibility--but also opens the door for a "anything could happen at any time" frame of mind which can leave us feeling helpless. On the other, If we're completely in control of our own fate, we can be comforted by the fact that every action we take WILL move us in the intended direction--unless things go south, in which case personal responsibility begins to feel extremely, well, personal.
I think about this a lot. There are parts of what I've done to put this band together that could be attributed to pure luck--stumbling upon my phenomenal bandmates would be a big one. Not only are they extraordinary musicians who happen to share a very similar dream as mine, they're also just a wonderful group of guys who have effectively become family to me. But I'd say most of it has come from force of will. And lately I just haven't had the time to push as hard as I should be. I've left everything on auto-pilot, confident that luck would take the wheel, and now we've plateued a bit. I haven't neglected things in a big way--just not quite as involved as I was a couple months ago--but I can feel the shift. It's alarming when you're hit by the realization of just how heavy all of your actions and choices are. It makes me feel guilty and a little panicked every moment I spend voluntarily doing something non-essential (i.e., marathoning GOT in my pjs at 11 am on a Weds) instead of focusing a laser-like intensity on the band I'm trying to grow. But then again, it was always the kids with helicopter parents that crashed and burned at an early age--I also don't want to stifle what we do by squeezing it too tight.
I'm not sure there's a solution to this. There's certainly no fine line between the two--that would imply that there's a way to balance them. I don't think that's possible. It seems to me that at the end of the day you have to disregard both: you can trust neither luck nor drive. Either way, there are no guarantees, and if you focus too intensely on either, you end up a burned out workaholic or rubbing a rabbits' foot raw, both of which generally detract from what you're actually trying to do. I think the best thing is the simplest solution: one day, one moment at a time. Keep luck and drive in your peripherals, but never let them blind you to actually doing what you love.